P.S. to Yesterday’s Post: Life on the Infinite Walkway

Reposted from The Patient Path November 4, 2014

Infinite Walkway

Yesterday I wrote about my one-year “to the day” anniversary of being diagnosed with uterine (endometrial) cancer. Today is my one-year “to the date” marker. And I am lucky.

Watching the evening news last night, November 3, I saw three stories about people who have lived lives that were, yes, challenged by cancer, but more importantly were full of significance, influence, and inspiration. Today I wish to pay homage to them with a brief acknowledgment here:

It is easy to toss around words such as grace, dignity, and courage. It is not so easy to live them. At this writing, Lauren is still with us. No matter what you believe, don’t believe, or don’t know that (or what or whether) you believe, please hold them in your heart and send loving thoughts their way, whether you call them prayers, meditations, or good wishes.

This summer, I honored other people whose lives had been intricately bound with mine (Life Giveth, Life Taketh Away . . . and It Giveth Again).

Yesterday, I spoke of both turning back and standing still in time (My Current Story, Anniversary: Uterine (Endometrial) Cancer – Turning Back the Clock and Looking at “The Fault in Our Stars”), ending with a quotation from John Green’s powerful, moving, and very real story of young people defying cancer with the fierceness and sheer power of love: “Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.”

Toward the end of the book, one of the characters is eulogizing another, talking about the infinite numbers (carried to many decimal points) that reside between the bigger numbers we recognize in everyday life. The final words of the tribute speak to the unknown worlds and existences that transcend the boundaries of our circumscribed lives as creatures of earth:

. . . I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. . . . You gave me a forever within the numbered days.

Here’s to you, Brittany, Oscar, and Lauren. I hope to meet you all on the infinite walkway that takes us through and beyond our numbered days that we do not know how to count. Thank you for walking among us during our time-bound existence on earth.

Godspeed as you continue on your journeys, wherever infinity takes you.

Infinities 2

“Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.”


Life Giveth, Life Taketh Away . . . and It Giveth Again

Spiral Clock

All things exist . . . somewhere in the misty, mysterious spiral of time.

Five years ago today, August 15, 2009, a Saturday, I met my sister for the first time after a 50-year separation. My Sister’s Story – Adoption & Reunion tells it all.

A year later, on that same Saturday, I visited my friend for the last time at Johns Hopkins University Hospital. She died just weeks later. My Friend’s Story – Leukemia relates a bit about our 50-year friendship and the powerful connection my friend had with my sister.

Yesterday, I posted My Son’s Father’s Story – Lung Cancer. He never knew my sister, but he did know my friend, back in a time when we were young.

After a week in which I’ve contemplated personal loss (as well as the precariousness of my own health), and a week in which the world lost two luminaries, Robin Williams and Lauren Bacall, it bears remembering that we live in a circle of life. Honoring my former husband and our son, his legacy . . . keeping in touch with my friend’s expanding family, her legacy . . . finding a sister after half a century of separation, destiny’s legacy . . . all are happy reminders of the cycle of birth, death, and life again.

These personal stories interconnect in a deeply meaningful way that, to me, seems cosmic . . . somewhere in the misty, mysterious spiral of time.